Wistful

I’ve heard that good photographers only show their best work, and this certainly isn’t one of mine. It’s the view I have looking into the living room of my home. Not very picturesque, the lighting and the focus are awful.

So why post it? Just to make the point, I guess. I am inside and not outside. I’ve had little opportunity lately to take photographs. When I am feeling mean-spirited about myself, I tell myself that I am just being lazy and not putting forth the effort. But the truth is I’m exhausted. Two  jobs, doing continuing education in the evenings as I can, church committees, travel for work, caring for family, doing as best I can much of the housework, caring for the yard, trying to figure out the vagaries of home improvement and debt reduction. It’s all a little trying on me.

Tonight on the way home from work I told myself that tonight was going to be the night. I would put forth the effort to get out about an hour before sunset and find something – anything – to shoot in the best light of the day. I’m so tired I can hardly hold my head up, but I was determined. By the time the magic hour came around I only had the energy to make it to my back yard, but I told myself that was OK. A far better photographer than I am once told me that I just needed to look at my back yard differently, and this was a good opportunity.

Then I spotted the ground by the house moving. Thousands of red flying ants. Thousands upon thousands. Probably half a dozen nests. I trudged back into the house to get the necessary chemicals to deal with them. By the time I was done, the sun was set well below anything I could shoot it without a tripod. Since my tripod recently bit the dust, I was out of luck for tonight. Won’t be able to afford a new one for quite some time.

So I pointed the camera wistfully out the front window, thinking of sunrise tomorrow. Somehow, I can’t find it in my heart to be optimistic about the morning light. I need to sleep.

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4 Comments

  1. Cardinal Guzman September 15, 2012 at 1:13 am #

    Sorry about your tripod…

  2. Sheila T Illustrated September 15, 2012 at 10:09 pm #

    I know where you are coming from, AJ. A little shut eye will change your outlook. 🙂

  3. Tuxedo Sophisticated Cat September 18, 2012 at 5:16 pm #

    Get some badly needed rest. The sun will come up tomorrow and set again tomorrow night. There’s always another day. It sounds like you are pretty much overloaded with everything.

    • AJBopp September 18, 2012 at 6:22 pm #

      Thanks Maralee. I’m trying to take it easy. Photography was one of the ways I used to do that though 😉

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